I’m currently sitting on the floor of my boyfriends studio apartment, smoking a freshly rolled spliff. I’m revisiting this mix, contemplating one year later what motivated me then, and what still makes it central to my reality now. Its an honest mix. What do I mean by honest?

I set out with specifics goals when making this mix. There are two central ideas that compromise it and I followed an emotional and analytical formula. This was quickest mix I have recorded to date, 4 days. Its a translation of how I feel about love, god, and every crazy, wonderful, sad, beautiful, phenomonal, frightening thing about everything. Each track was a petal to the flower. It was as much about the space in between as the sounds themselves. Its about the void, and what fills it. With each track I chose I asked, what does this say, if anything? I wanted a suttle mix of genres. Each track was played out almost in its entirety, every note had to be heard.

This mix was also silently dedicated to someone for there inspiration in its making. People, as flawed as we think we are, are miraculous creatures. We allow each other to experience love, and a whole collection of other emotions and experiences. If it is only for a moment we come together, I can always be thankful for what people allow me to experience and what they teach me. This is a recognition of the beauty, and the ugliness, that people can create together.

A year later I can still listen to it and enjoy it. I’m still in that place.